You know I’ve had a rough time with transitioning to being alone in a new city, a new school, a new everything. The biggest transition of my life and yet I’m obviously making it work. Have I cried? Have I felt alone and depressed? Have I felt so utterly lost and scared? Yes! The emotional ups and downs have stabilized a bit and now I seem to just have this air of indifference around me. It still doesn’t feel “real”, yet it feels like I have been here my whole life, but also only here an hour.
What am I finding so difficult? What am I struggling with? When I really think about it, I’m not sure. I’m not really sure if what I am choosing to study is right for me. I hate living on the other residential campus away from the city, that means I’m pretty isolated and it’s hard to get to the city since I have to take the shuttle. All the little things about my dorm that just simply suck. They amount to a big mess of things I hate and things I don’t want to deal with. I miss my family, my home. I hate having to worry about money. I hate this feeling of the unknown. There is just something not right.Read More