Dear Mom,
I really can not even tell you how excited I am that you're coming down to DC this weekend! I haven't seen you since August 23rd (except for that one time we Skyped). That's crazy, but what's even crazier is how much I've missed you! I've never experienced this kind of emotion before. I've never missed my best friend, I've never had a best friend to miss...except now.
I'm so glad we've been able to at least talk on the phone and check-in with each other almost every day. But talking and texting only go so far. I need to feel your presence and the safety you exude. Sometimes I just get this overwhelming felling of fear. I'm scared and I don't know why. If I knew you were here, I think that would help. You are more than a mother to me, you're the most important person in my life.
It hurts me that you've already missed so much, so many little things. Little moments or things that have happened or I've overheard. Normally you would be the first person to tell, but I always forget these moments by the time I talk to you at the end of the day. That's why I think you should more down here. We could rent an apartment and we could be roomies 😉 (Then you could do my laundry...it still stresses me out. I'd rather clean the toilet.) In exchange I'll cook...you know I'm dieing to do just that. We could also open out own business. I'm thinking a fitness/yoga studio. I could teach and you could to the marketing and office work. You could also start writing that novel of yours or do some freelance work on the side. It would work, don't shake you head!
Not everyone has a mom they're so close with and can call them their best friend. I'm one of the lucky ones. I can. I'm lucky you're not one of those mothers wearing mom jeans or obsessed with dyeing their hair blonde and going to the tanning beds, trying to stay "hip and young" forever (even though they are just rick and snobby). You my friend, know who to keep it real.
I miss your quirks too, believe it or not. That tell-tale sign that your home when the endless clearing of the throat commences. Using every piece of silverware we own just to make your sesame Glutino bagel (which you only ever eat half of). Driving in the car with you...o boy. (There is one Vex driver who reminds me of you. It's hilarious and always puts a smile on my face.) Knowing that you'll be in the kitchen (at the table on your laptop in a pile of clutter or making something to eat) when I come down there to start cooking. Now I have to hold my breath and pray that some glutinizer isn't using the oven or making a mess in the hall kitchen if I want to cook. (The other day there was cooked pasta all over the counter and floor!)
But really, I just miss you and everything you are to me. There is NO ONE like you. NO ONE. You are totally one of a kind. How you talk (loud and a lot, switching from one topic to the next because your mind never stops to focus for too long), how you walk (fast), how you sleep (with a lot of fans and praying you don't wake up sick with a headache), how you think (like I said, a mile a minute), how you care (so much), how you work (so hard and unappreciated), how you cook (well...you don't), how you heal (with your mother's presence and touch), how you love (unconditionally).
You are my mother, my confidant, my care-giver, my healer, my best friend. We talk, fight, gossip, motivate, cheer up, hate, get frustrated with, argue, laugh, but mostly love.
You don't have to do anything else but be there. Even the silence on the other end of a phone call is enough to calm me down. Just knowing that you are there, feeling out connection, knowing you alive.
And you're going to be here soon! A joy! I can't wait to hug you and see your smile. (Please smile and forget your worries down here. I like it when you're happy!)
Love,
Rebecca
(This was inspired by my bloggie friend Katherine!)
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Kristen
I'm catching up on blog posts and I LOVE THIS! I have cried so many times this summer from missing my mom - it was so incredibly hard saying goodbye to her a few weeks ago when I left Philly! I felt the same way when I went away to college and I think it helped to create such a strong bond between us. I'm excited that your mom was able to come visit and I hope it went well!
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Thanks Kristen! When ypi already have such a strong bond it makes things soooo much harder!
kimmythevegan
That is so sweet! You are so lucky to be so close to your mom and have such an amazing woman in your life =)
Enjoy your visit!
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Thanks Kimmy!
Keisha
How sweet! You are very lucky indeed. 🙂
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Thank you!
Shelly
This is so sweet. I hope my daughters will feel the same way about me when they get older (which is right around the corner with my 12 year old).
I am very close to my mom too. I moved away from her for the first time two years ago. I miss her more than I ever anticipated. Honestly, I wanted to move far away (I moved from TX to Hawaii) to know the feeling of missing her. I wanted to learn how NOT to take her presence for granted. It worked, a little too well 🙂 lol.
Have a great time with your mom! She is very blessed to have such a thoughtful, appreciative daugter.
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Thank you so much Shelly!
Your daughters will totally appreciate you! It always happens!
Katherines Corner
This is so sweet, I appreciate it all so very much too. Big hugs for you and for your Mom. Thank you for sharing at Thursday Favorite Things blog hop. xo
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Thank you Katherine! 🙂
Chelsea @ lil miss fitness freak
I loved this. Reminds me of the relationship I have with my Mom. Glad you have such an amazing support system 🙂
Nickely Challenged
I envy your relationship with your mom. Wow! Too beautiful for words. I am glad she as supportive as your are of her. Thanks for sharing.
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Thank you!
Heather O'Neill
It's always nice to see a mom appreciated! 🙂
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Ha, thanks Heather 😉
Anastasia Amour
This is SO lovely - it made me reflect on the awesome relationship that I have with my mother, and how lucky women are to get to share this special bond with someone 🙂 Great post xx
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
It is a bond like no other! Never take a mom for granted! XOXO
Kaylin @ Enticing Healthy Eating
Oh, this post gave me so many good feelings, Rebecca. I, too, am best friends with my mother. They are rare relationships to see in today's world but goodness when you find a mom that you can be that close too...it is such a blessing. Your post was fantastic and I hope your mother reads it thoroughly! I'm sure she'll be crying by the end of it if she's anything like my own mother, haha. So sweet!
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Haha she was! She was the first comment on this post 😉
Moms really are the best and I am so lucky!
~ linda
I had my Mama come to DC while I was teaching there. We had been stationed in DC when I was a girl and DC was just a favorite place of Mama's. So during the 3 years I taught in SE DC, she lived with me for 1 1/2 years and we had a wonderful time. She was the best. I now really miss my Mama as she passed away, but she was 98, almost 99. I was blessed to have been her caregiver during the last 15 years of her life. Mothers are special and dear.
Have a great time together.
Caring through Christ, ~ linda
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
I'm sure she had a beautiful life!
Thank you Linda.
Rouge
this was a very refreshing read. It's funny how you don't miss someone until they're that much farther away from you. When I moved out I felt that way for a while as well but then I just started planning really fun trips when we all got to get together that made all the difference.
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
No, I'd always miss my mom if I didn't get to see her or talk to her each day!
Natalie
I know exactly how you feel. My mom and my big sister are both my BFFs, and right now I miss them both like crazy. It's the little things that you miss, the little things that you never think about until you are alone. I don't know what I'd do without my dog, but she still can't listen to my stories or help me with the laundry 🙂
I hope your weekend together is fabulous, savor every second of it!!
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
A dog is totally a good companion to have! They keep you from getting lonely 😉
Thank you Natalie!
GiGi Eats
Aw! You are the cutest! I TOO love my mama!!!! 🙂 I went from XMAS until Labor Day without seeing her, HOW NUTS IS THAT!!!! But now I am going to see her for Thanksgiving and XMAS - this is why I ADORE THIS TIME OF YEAR, because I get more family time! 🙂
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Haha, thanks 😉 Family time is the best! There is nothing like living in the love and warm moments!
Emily @My Healthyish Life
I'm one of the lucky ones too. My mom is my best friend and I cherish the time we have together (this weekend for me too!). Enjoy your time! xoxo
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
It's mom weekend everywhere! Have a great weekend too! 🙂 XOXO
Brie @ Lean, Clean, & Brie
Absolutely love this! My mom and I have always been close, but it is so true that going away to college forms a whole new relationship with your mom. I get to see my mom this weekend too and I am so excited! Being there in person is always better than catching up over the phone!!
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Yes! I can not wait to see her! The phone totally does not cut it! I knew it would be hard, but not in this type of way!
Linda @ The Fitty
You're a beautiful person because of your mother. 🙂 never take her for granted!!!
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Thanks Linda.
Lisa
Thank you, "Pippy"... You made me laugh and cry...I love you and miss you very much XOXOXO and can't wait until we are together Friday :)))
Thinking of that HUG book with the little monkey... 🙂
Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
Your first comment 🙂
That book! It describes everything <3
XOXO